WHAT DA FUCK IS LOVE????

WELL WAT A QUESTION TO ASK.. Does any1 knw?? I sure as hell don't know..And m nt sure I ever will. I am fucking confused.. I ve had far too many crushes in my life.. Some were hormonal othrs wer frm da heart.. But the funny part is hormonal went wel n I had to pull myself back while the ones frm heart failed miserably..Too much pressure I d say!! And every time my heart told me -GO FOR HER ..SHE'S THE ONE it jus didnt have to work out..And although this always hapnd oNe at a time.. It hapnd far too many times..Everytime I knew that she was the one until aft doin my best I realised she had no interest whatsoever..Or then she had her reasons and yes of course they wer gud ones. Everytime my heart went for a gal I was ready to give it all I had n more.. Bt then that was never gud enough fr her or rather I was not..
So now I m realy nt sure which one my heartaches was luv..whch was jus infatuation.. May be - being the hopeless romantic that I m I m jus in luv with the idea of being in luv..
That brings me to the title- I realy dnt knw what luv is..
One thng I ve learnt bout gals is that
If they want to do a thing.. If they r into it.. If they want to say yes..if they realy feel u r gud enough for them.. THEY WOULD SAY 'YES , I DO!!! Haha
Or else when u hear - we r such gud frnds, I dnt thnk its the rt time, my priorities in life r diff.. My family and so on..THEY R JUS SAYIN IT UR FACE- FUCK OFF..U R JUS NT GUD ENOUGH FOR ME..
And theN its for u to decide whether u want to sing MAY BE and hang on or try to move on..and as for me
I AM NT SURE WHAT I AM DOIN..OR GOING TO DO..
STATE OF UTTER CONFUSION.. My life as wel as this post!!!