SHE'S NEVER GONNA FEEL THE WAY YOU DO.....

You have ur feelings..
and she has hers..
you want them to be same ..
But boy u remember...
shes never gonna feel the way you do..

You did what you could...
you gave it your best shot...
you choose to look beyond reality..
you choose to take your chance...
but you ought to remember -
shes never gonna feel the way you do

You forgot lessons life has taught you..
you choose to take the bumpy road again..
you choose to live..
but you forgot shes never gonna feel the way you do..

You choose to dream..
you decided she was your dream..
but she was never there for you to dream..
and
Boy you forgot shes never gonna feel the way you do...

You thought this was it..
you are in love with her..
you thought your lifes gonna change nw..
but you forgot you are invisible..
you forgot you don't really exist...
and now Boy you really gotta remember shes never gonna feel the way you do!!!!

LIFE ASKS ME WHEN WILL YOU EVER LEARN????
I SAY MAY BE NEVER!!!

FEAR

Yes of course I am scared..i d rather say anxious as I do have some history here. But is courage abscence of fear?? Na! Its realising it and overcoming it..stil going on to do those things which give you that feeling... And the feeling that you have on accomplishing this , you may call it satisfaction , pride , happiness...is unmatched!!!uncomparable.. Unbelievable..
And taking that step can be called courage.. That has to be courage!!

??????????

What is it?? Have I ever been there?? How does it feel?? Am I stil capable of feeling it??
Wat wld u say when u feel ur in luv n then 1 fine day a beautiful gal comes n sits nxt to u n u talk..She closely resembles tat dream gal u had dreamt of years bck.. And suddenly ur nt sure of ur so called luv tat u ve been chasin fr sm time nw!!
So it was'nt luv in the first place was it?
And u ve alreay decided tat tis dream gal is outta ur league..so wat do u do?? Go bck to gal u ve been chasing ??
A compromise??
Thinking u ll find luv aft u get married?
Or get used to the idea of luving ur wife??
Or u d jus convince urselves tat ur
In love???
So the question on table stil remains!! Whr is luv??
This just seems heights of emotional unstability!!
And now there seems to be tis 3rd one in fray as well!! Come on!! I need some help down here!! I guess I shld get back to my beers and leave these questions alone.. May be they wil go on and solve themselves..
CHEERS

THE WAIT.!.!

EVERY FAILURE AND IT SEEMS LIFE IS NOT GONNA MOVE AHEAD!<br>
BUT LIFE PROVES ME WRONG EVERYTIME....
AND YET MY HABITS DNT CHANGE..I AM I UTTER DESPAIR EVERYTIME LIFE DOES THAT TO ME...
WHEN AM I GOING TO LEARN??? M I GOING TO LIVE MY LIFF WAITING??? AND WAITING FOR WHAT I DON't KNOW..

I MISS......

I MISS THE INNOCENCE OF BEING IN LOVE FOR DA FIRST TIME..

THE INNOCENCE OF LOOKING AT HER FOR THE FIRST TIME...

OF STEALING GLANCES AT HER THROUGH OTHERS..

OF TRYING TO SMILE AT HER AND BEING SCARED WHEN SHE LOOKED UR WAY..
.
AND THEN CLAIMING U SMILED AT HER..

THE INNOCENCE OF TOUCHING HER ACCIDENTALLY AND THEN HOLDING AND STARING AT THAT PART AS IF ITS BEEN BLESSED...

THE INNOCENCE OF DANCING AROUND LIKE CRAZY WHEN SHE FIRST SPOKE TO ME...

I MISS THE INNOCENCE OF HER FIRST SMILE..

I MISS THE INNOCENCE OF HER VOICE...

AND YES THE INNOCENCE OF FEELING AND CONVINCING URSELF THAT SHE ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN YOU..

I MISS HER...

BUT WHO IS SHE????
And WHERE IS SHE??

THAT IS SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO FIND!!!!

THEY SAY JOURNEY IS BETTER THAN DESTINATION BUT LETS HOPE IN THIS CASE BOTH ARE EQUALLY GUD AS IT'S BEEN ONE HELL OF A JOURNEY SO FAR!!

WARRIOR OF LIGHT......

I AM A FAN OF PAULO COELHO'S WRITING ( although i never seem to get spelling of his last name right the first time) WHEN I READ THE ALCHEMIST I COULD REALLY FIND THE SPIRITUAL MESSAGE IN IT BUT WAS MORE INTERESTED IN THE JOURNEY THE SHEPHERD TAKES..I GUESS THAT'S HOW I LOOKED AT LIFE THEN..JUST LIVING IT AND NOT TRYING TO FIND TO MANY LESSONS AND MESSAGES IN IT..THE I WENT ON TO READ THE             AUTHORIZED BIOGRAPHY OF THE MAN HIMSELF - " A WARRIOR'S LIFE ". MIGHTY IMPRESSED BY THE UPS AND DOWNS THAT HE WENT THROUGH. I WILL NOT SAY THAT HIS BOOKS OR LIFE UNTIL THEN HAD ANY KIND OF IMPACT ON MY LIFE UNTIL THEN ALTHOUGH IT DID AND AFTER SOME TIME I DID TAKE A FEW DECISIONS THAT MADE ME AND WILL MAKE ME FEEL MUCH BETTER ALL MY LIFE.BUT THAT'S A WHOLE NEW STORY!!! I HAVE NOT READ ALL HIS EVEN.. BUT I THINK IT HARDLY MATTERS. ONE DAY I CAME ACROSS THIS ESSAY OF HIS - THE WARRIOR OF LIGHT ( MANUAL) IT WAS A FEW PAGE ESSAY.
WHAT IT SAID WAS JUST TOO AMAZING FOR ME. IT GOES AS BELOW :

 " THEY ARE NEVER PREDICTABLE.THEY MIGHT DANCE DOWN THEIR WAY TO WORK,GAZE INTO EYES OF A COMPLETE STRANGER AND SPEAK OF LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OR ELSE DEFEND A COMPLETELY ABSURD IDEA
.
THEY ALLOW THEMSELVES DAYS LIKE THESE.THEY ARE NOT AFRAID TO WEEP OVER ANCIENT SORROWS OR FEEL JOYS AT NEW DISCOVERIES.

WHEN THEY BELIEVE THE MOMENT HAS ARRIVED THEY DROP EVERYTHING AND GO OFF ON SOME LONG DREAMED ADVENTURE. WHEN THEY REALIZE THEY CAN DO NO MORE , THEY BLAME THEMSELVES FOR HAVING COMMITTED A FEW UNEXPECTED ACTS OF FOLLY.WARRIORS DO NOT SPEND SINGLE DAYS TRYING TO PLAY ROLE OTHERS HAVE CHOSEN FOR THEM .

THEY TALK ALOUD TO THEMSELVES FOR SOMEONE TOLD THEM THIS IS THE BEST WAY TO COMMUNICATE TO ANGELS SO THEY TAKE A CHANCE AND TRY TO MAKE CONTACT, THEY SAY THINGS WHICH THEY DO NOT AGREE , THEY TALK UTTER NONSENSE.

ONE DAY THEY NOTICE A CHANGE IN THEIR VOICE.THEY ARE ACTING AS A CHANNEL TO SOME HIGHER WISDOM. THE WARRIORS MAY LOOK MAD BUT IT'S JUST A DISGUISE... "

LIKE EVERYONE DOES TRY TO FIT INTO THE MOVIES THEY LOVE , THE BOOKS THEY LIKE AS A CHARACTER, EVEN I TRIED TO FIT INTO TO THIS  AND IT ALMOST FIT PERFECTLY... BUT THEN MAY BE MOST OF US WOULD FIT INTO THIS ONE..

I NO LONGER KNOW.....

I hav been chasing gals all my life...Trying to have a gal in my life, I mean a gal who means something to me...but as u know in vain.. As a child I wanted tis particular girl in my life. I thought ters no life without her.without her I wldnt be able to live.. But time passed and I felt the same about another girl...again I did amazing thngs to woo her( amazing by my standards:-)) but in vain..and then happened again and yet again... Every time the feeling was as strong and fresh as ever... But this kept happening over and over again...But yet I was not to realise...Point to note is that I did land females that I didnt realy want in my life.. But hormones u know B-)
So now when I am 27...I have the job I dreamt of some time in life..I had money I always wanted...Everything
I had ever hoped...But I no longer want all this...I don't know what I want but I am sure I want smthng else...Tis in no way means I wld shy away frm duties or ever think about it.. In fact for someone like me for whom honour , this kind of resposibility , and my men and my duty are far more important than anything else in life this is unthinkable...
But my question to life and me in fact remains the same.. What da fuck do u realy want??????????
So I feel that this LOVE that has eluded me for so long Is this wat I realy want???
After trying so hard to woo the gals I ve always ..trying so hard to make them part of my life and trying so hard to be part of their life , and them driving me away so easily like It nvr meant anythng to them( I am sure it didn't) I AM REALY NOT SURE AND SAY TO my self " I NO LONGER KNOW" ..
CHEERS